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Plenty of people start with me alone for exactly this reason and bring their spouse in once they have something clear to say." } }, { "@type": "Question", "name": "What if my partner and I want genuinely different things?", "acceptedAnswer": { "@type": "Answer", "text": "Then you have a real negotiation, which is far better than a silence. Different is normal. What breaks marriages is not difference, it is one person concluding privately that difference means rejection and then withdrawing without ever checking. Two people who can say the difference out loud almost always find more overlap than either expected." } }, { "@type": "Question", "name": "Will you tell me what is normal?", "acceptedAnswer": { "@type": "Answer", "text": "No, and be careful with anyone who does. Normal in this area is a statistical claim about strangers and it has never once helped a couple in my office. The only question that matters is what the two of you want and whether you have both actually said it. I will help you get to that, not to a benchmark." } } ] } ] --- [![Parent Marriage](/__l5e/assets-v1/323329b7-bfb6-4413-bc32-07161cb70b98/parent-marriage-logo.png)](/) [Home](/)[The 8 Stages](/help-me-save-my-marriage)[About](/about)[Marriage Straight Talk](/free-marriage-advice) [305-986-2905](tel:+13059862905)[Book a consultation](/book) [Book](/book) 1. [Home](/) 2. Sexual Identity Guide # Exploring Your Sexual Identity Inside a Marriage Most married people have never been asked what they actually want. They were handed a script at 15 and have been running it ever since. Here is how that question gets opened without blowing up a marriage. ![A couple embracing, captioned What is your relationship with your sexuality](/assets/What-Is-Your-Relationship-With-Your-Sexuality-AslXCGSo.png) There is a lot written about sexual identity as though it were a staircase you either climbed correctly or fell off somewhere around age 12. I do not find that useful and I do not coach it. What I see in real marriages is far simpler and far more common: two adults who have been together for a decade, who have never once been asked what they actually want, and who assume the answer is obvious to everyone but them. So this page is not a developmental theory. It is about the practical version of the question inside a marriage that already exists, usually with children in it. Who are you as a sexual person now, at 38, after two kids and a career and a body that changed. What of that is genuinely yours and what did you inherit from people who are not in the room. And what do you do once you have an honest answer. In this article 1. 01 [The script you were handed](#inherited-script) 2. 02 [What actually changed after the kids](#what-changed) 3. 03 [You cannot negotiate for something you have not named](#your-own-answer) 4. 04 [Saying it to the person you married](#telling-your-partner) 5. 05 [This is not a referendum on the marriage](#not-a-referendum) 6. 06 [When the question is bigger than the marriage](#when-it-is-bigger) 7. 07 [Talk it through](#talk-it-through) 8. 08 [Questions couples ask](#faq) ## The script you were handed Nobody sat you down and explained what you were supposed to want. You absorbed it. From the house you grew up in, from your religion if you had one, from whatever your first relationship taught you, from a culture that had extremely specific ideas and repeated them constantly. By the time you were an adult you had a full script: what a man is supposed to initiate, what a woman is supposed to feel, how often is normal, what counts and what does not, which of your own reactions are acceptable to have. Most people have never separated one line of that from their own actual experience. They just run it and then quietly wonder why they feel like they are performing. The tell is simple. If you cannot answer the question without immediately checking whether the answer is allowed, you are reading a script, not reporting a preference. Lines from the script - A person my age should have this figured out by now - Wanting more than we have means something is wrong with me - Wanting less than we have means something is wrong with me - If I have to ask for it, it does not count - This is not the kind of thing you discuss out loud - We used to be spontaneous, so planning it means we failed ## What actually changed after the kids Here is the part that gets misread constantly. Something real did change, and it was not your feelings for each other. You now share a house with small people who need things at all hours. Both of you are running a sleep deficit that would be illegal in most workplaces. One of you has been touched all day by a toddler and has nothing left in the tank for being touched again. The window that used to be an entire evening is now 40 minutes between the last bedtime and the first collapse. None of that is a verdict on the marriage. It is arithmetic. What that arithmetic does, though, is expose the script. When there was unlimited time and energy, you never had to know what you actually wanted, because everything got covered by accident. Now there are 40 minutes and someone has to choose, and neither of you has language for what you would choose. So nobody chooses and the 40 minutes goes to a screen. The story couples tell We lost it What is usually true We never named it We used to want each other and now we do not. You used to have enough surplus that nobody had to be specific. The surplus is gone, not the wanting. It should be spontaneous or it is not real. Spontaneity was a feature of having no responsibilities. Every couple with young kids who is doing well is planning something. If my partner wanted me, they would know what I like. They cannot read a rulebook you have never shown them. Most people have never written it down for themselves either. Bringing it up will hurt them. Not bringing it up is already hurting them. They are filling in the silence with a worse story than the truth. ## You cannot negotiate for something you have not named This is the part I mean by exploring your identity, and it is quieter than the phrase suggests. Before there is any conversation with your spouse, there is a conversation with yourself that most married people have never had. What do you actually enjoy, as opposed to what you have been performing. What has changed since you were 25 that you have not admitted to yourself. What do you want more of, less of, or differently. Where does affection sit for you separately from sex, because for a lot of people those two got fused years ago and now neither is available. Nobody hands you a form for this. And I want to be honest that it can be uncomfortable, because the first thing most people discover is that they have been going along with an arrangement neither person ever explicitly chose. That is not a betrayal. It is what happens when two people build a life fast and never audit the private parts of it. ## Saying it to the person you married The fear here is universal and worth naming: if I tell my spouse what I actually want, they will hear it as a complaint about who they have been for the last 12 years. They might, the first time. That is a real risk and it is manageable. The way you manage it is by leading with yourself rather than with them. You are reporting something about your own interior, not filing a review. There is a large difference between saying I have realized I want more of this, and saying you never do this. The first opens a conversation. The second opens a defense. The mechanics of getting a hard sentence across intact are the same everywhere in a marriage, and I lay them out in [how to improve communication in marriage](/how-to-improve-communication-in-marriage). Apply them here more carefully than anywhere else, because this is the subject where people hear the worst possible version of what was said. > If you cannot answer the question without first checking whether the answer is allowed, you are reading a script, not telling the truth. Matthew W. Hoelscher, PCC ## This is not a referendum on the marriage A lot of couples avoid this whole territory because they are afraid of what they will find. Let me take some pressure off that. Discovering that you want something different is not the same as discovering that you married the wrong person. In my experience it is far more often the opposite. The couples who open this up tend to find that they have been running parallel private lives inside the same bedroom, each protecting the other from a truth the other would have welcomed. That is a solvable problem and it is a good day when it surfaces. It is also worth understanding that the natural cooling of early chemistry is going to happen to every couple regardless of what either of you wants, which I go into in [how desire fades naturally](/how-does-desire-fade-naturally). Do not confuse that cooling with an identity question. They arrive at the same time and they need different answers. The reframe I use most You are not deciding whether the marriage was a mistake. You are deciding whether the two of you are going to build the next 20 years on purpose or keep running a script neither of you wrote. ## When the question is bigger than the marriage I want to be straight about the limits of what I do, because this topic has a version that is not coaching work. If what you are working out is your orientation itself, that is deep personal territory and it deserves a licensed professional who specializes in it, not a marriage coach. I am not the right room for that and I will say so on the first call. The same applies if there is trauma in your history, an active addiction, or a mental health condition in the picture. I do not diagnose and I do not treat. What I do is coach the marriage. Two people, a shared life, and a conversation they have not been able to have. If you want to know who I take and who I turn away, I set it out plainly in [who I actually work with](/types-of-clients-for-relationship-coaching). ## Talk it through If you have read this far, something in it is already true for you. [Book a free 25 minute call](/talk-to-marriage-coach) and we will look at what is actually going on rather than what you have assumed is going on. It is for first timers and it costs nothing. And if you want the bigger picture of what happens to two people once the children arrive, start with [what a parent marriage actually is](/what-is-a-parent-marriage). ## Questions couples ask ### Is it normal to still be working this out in my 40s? It is the norm, not the exception. Most people got a script in adolescence and never revisited it, and the first thing that forces a revisit is usually a marriage under load, a body that changed, or a quiet stretch of years where something obviously stopped working. Arriving at the question at 42 does not mean you are behind. It means you are finally asking. ### Do I have to talk about this with my spouse, or can I sort it out alone first? Sort it out alone first, most of the time. You cannot negotiate for something you have not named, and trying to work it out live in front of your partner tends to produce a conversation about their feelings instead of yours. Plenty of people start with me alone for exactly this reason and bring their spouse in once they have something clear to say. ### What if my partner and I want genuinely different things? Then you have a real negotiation, which is far better than a silence. Different is normal. What breaks marriages is not difference, it is one person concluding privately that difference means rejection and then withdrawing without ever checking. Two people who can say the difference out loud almost always find more overlap than either expected. ### Will you tell me what is normal? No, and be careful with anyone who does. Normal in this area is a statistical claim about strangers and it has never once helped a couple in my office. The only question that matters is what the two of you want and whether you have both actually said it. I will help you get to that, not to a benchmark. [Book a free call ](/book) ![Matthew W. Hoelscher, marriage coach in Miami](/__l5e/assets-v1/793ff08a-677d-4393-a950-cb99a7968138/matt-portrait.jpg) Matthew W. Hoelscher, PCC ICF Professional Certified Coach and the marriage coach behind Parent Marriage, in Miami. 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